Trigger is GONE!

Ok, so I poas this morning and got no lines at all. This is great! now I know that the trigger is out of my system and if I get 2 lines next time, I'm really knocked up!! woot!

Still 2 lines

fainter though, much fainter..

2 lines..

Of course there is! lol, it's only been 2 days!

I'm PUPO!

It's been a long time since I've said that. It went well, they used the lidocaine again and I didn't have any pain again! LOVE that stuff.

I'm not really sure how I feel except that I'm pretty calm now. Not sure if there's less pressure because I already have V or what but I'm finding this MUCH easier the second time around. Not that I wouldn't love #2 just as much as V but it's just less stressfull. I think because I know that my body CAN do it now, it's just a matter of timing and it being what God has planned for us.

So now the poasfest begins! Good thing the $ shop sells peesticks!!

This is what a chicken feels like!

Woah there Bert and Ernie! Had another b/w & U/s session this morning. I have sooooo many follicles it's not even funny! The u/s tech told me that my ovaries are so big that they are actually touching now! Got my call this afternoon to trigger tonight and start the progesterone supps tomorrow morning. Oh joy. Iui is on Friday morning at 10am.

Now the only thing I can do is keep peeing on sticks to make sure the trigger is gone!

My ovaries are showing off! lol

Yup, I got another peek at them today and goodness they are working HARD!! Bert has 8 follies all between 7-10 mm and Ernie has outdone himself! 9 follies the biggest of which is 13mm already! Hurrah!

Dropped the gonal f dose from 150 iu the last 3 days to 75 iu for the next couple of days and go back on wed for more b/w and u/s to see when it's 'GO TIME'

I suspect friday or saturday which would be cool. V was conceived on Fathers day and due on M's birthday so how cool would it be to have the next bambino/bambinette conceived on our 6yr wedding anniversary and due on/near my birthday?!!!

Roll on Wednesday morning!!

It's Needle time!!

My baseline appointment was this morning, it went well. It's funny how easily you slip back into the routine; check in, get blood drawn, get naked from the waist down and wait for the dr to scrutinize your bits and pieces.

I had forgotten also that I had named my ovaries a long time ago but it all came flooding back to me, lying on that table with my bum hanging out in the breeze. Bert is the left one, and Ernie is the right one. Yes, I'm aware that's not normal but if you've known me for any length of time then you'll know that it's not unusual!

Ernie and Bert are both doing wonderful things already, 6 follies on each side and we're only on day 3! Apparently I have ' a beautiful uterus' also.

Injections are different this time. The Gonal pen is almost fun to use, and a lot less cafuffle than the old- mix the vial of water with the vial of powder, shake and then draw up, change needles then inject- method. This is just - attach needle, dial dose, inject- I LOVE it! It does still sting a little but I think I hit a stretch mark so that didn't help!

Not much else to report, V is having the usual 16 mth teething, tantrums and squealing sessions and M actually asked last night if we're sure we're doing the right thing, trying for another. I told him that yes, of course we're doing the right thing. It will all be over in a couple of years!

Ok, off to bed. I have no idea what time or how many times V will have me up during the night so I try to start early!

Sooooo, I POAS...

and... NADA! lol. That's ok, I've been a little crampy the last 2 days so I think that 'frank' is just around the corner. I'm completely fine with this, I'm just so excited to get going on this next cycle, I really, really hope and pray that this works fast this time.. I can't afford the petrol to keep driving an hour each way for my RE appointments!!

gimme the drugs!

Ahh, my box of meds has arrived. I spent some time opening it and checking the contents, just to make sure that nothing was amiss. I'm not sure what I think about the new Gonal-F pens.. I was quite attached to my little vials of water and powder! Mind you, they will be easier to use and seeing as there was no difference in the copay, I took them out of curiosity :o) I tell you what, I have a great doc.. she wrote the script for 5 pens, 450iu each as a 30 day supply.. I checked with the insurance co, it's $438!!! for EACH pen! the happy news is that my copay was only $25, for all 5!! While that was most certainly a bargain, the Progesterone suppliments and the Ovidrel were $40 each, so a total copay of $105 for somewhere in the region of $3,000 in meds. Not as good as my old insurance but definately better than a lot of poor girls I know who have NO coverage for IF on their insurance.

If I ever win the lottery, I'm going to found a Grant fund for couples going through IF. I'd love to be able to help those who don't have what I've been blessed with.

Right, I'm off to bed.. I've been having very strange cramps all day. Wouldn't that just be fantastic? Find out the Clomid worked just after paying out the copay!! Never mind, I'm sure I'd find someone to sell it all to!

Waiting....

Just waiting for AF to show. I don't believe that the clomid worked. I don't feel pg.. mind you I didn't the last time either! It's funny isn't it, we spend most of our lives as young women, praying for her to show up, then, when we've grown and we're ready for children, she's the last thing we want to see! I can't quite believe that M and I are really going to go through all this again, BUT, V is most definately the BEST thing to ever happen to us and we know that we aren't 'done' trying to have children yet.

My appointment with the RE went really well, she said that there's no reason why we can't just jump in with the same protocol as the last cycle that got us V!! my big ol' box o' meds arrives on tuesday. Ahh, I remember the excitement of getting that box in the past. That box holds the promise of a dream. To everyone else, it's just a collection of needles, vials, and strangely named liquids and pellets, but to the IF expert it represents countless possiblities: 2 lines on a urine soaked stick, ultrasounds and heartbeats, cravings in the middle of the night, secret belly flutters that make you smile and ultimately -the promise of no longer crying for your dream but hearing your dream cry for you.

so now we wait...